My Eyes Are The Color Amber Making Everything Look Like How It Is With Sunglasses

I love chocolate and cute stuff. My wife wears a bath robe after she takes a shower. I call it a teddy bear costume because it's pink and fluffy and when I hug her it's like I'm hugging a teddy bear. She says it's not a teddy bear costume but I'm pretty sure it is. My mind has been racing in my own head recently. I've been mapping out my whole day, day to day very intricately. Every choice I make holds as much gravity as the next. And I try to make each choice extremely valuable. I've tried to incorporate inspiration into my life and ever since there has been a definite difference in my happiness.  Happiness is a funny thing because happiness appears in so many different ways.  I often find myself trying to encapsulate and extraordinary amount of information at once such as, a woman who holds her baby's finger after giving birth, then the eyes through the baby sticking out its finger feeling the weird confines of it's own skin all the while the cold air is permeating it...the doctor who delivered the baby goes to the locker room and removes their OR scrubs and has the best shower, then imagine every single life that doctor has help bring into this world and every single mother who has grabbed their baby's finger, then I imagine the babies grow and one goes to college then becomes a professor who's greatest happiness is a student who finally gets his dissertation, another baby grows and lives a life free of credit cards and any kind of monetary substance then moves to the forest and makes their own shelter living off the land, then I relate it all back to me and how every college graduate who doesn't go into an internship with no job that relates to their field of study has had some kind of on going existential crisis in a monotonous depressed like state in a wheel like a hamster, then I imagine busting out of my rat cage into a place where I can be present in this life happy with no excuses. That's my motto as of recent: no excuses. A sudden shift in my thoughts, choices, and action...living a life of inspiration, love, and relaxation have made the "now" in my life a success. They say success means something different to each person. I can't stop thinking about that.  Am I happy? I am extremely happy.